Card Reading for October 15, 2019

Card reading for 10/15/19. This message came through my meditation very strong today, 'you are worthy, you are forgiven.' Do you believe in second chances? I do. At least I do for everyone else. When it comes to me, though, I admit I question it. I think one of the hardest things to work with as an empath is the feeling of carrying the world on your shoulders, a LOT guilt, and a really hard time offering yourself the same gentleness you can so easily offer others.  The last few years, I have prayed for another chance at my life. I've prayed for new love, I've prayed for my children to be happy, healthy, and successful in our modern family, and I've prayed to be able to continue to do the work I love to do. But I have also made so many mistakes...and I've questioned my deservingness of such things. Along this journey I've discovered how deep my pain goes. I've discovered that reading all the spiritual books in the world doesn't mean anything until you apply it to your real life situations. Truth is, my wounds have been triggered hard these last few years and I've lashed out. It's not pretty and I know I've hurt people. I immediately feel terrible. I've prayed for forgiveness, and yet, the guilt keeps me down and I haven't felt it. The circumstances of my life seemed to go from bad to worse and I just assumed it's because that's what I deserve. But a little over year ago, I fell in love. And piece by piece, my life is looking more and more like I want it to. I've been waking up lately with immense gratitude in my heart and the inkling that things are only going to keep getting better. In my meditation today I thought ‘why not?’ and then i felt forgiveness from somewhere. Was it finally just my own self? I don't know but my heart let go and I cried because I trusted it. I really felt it. The cards today are affirming it too. The message here for you today is that you can have and do whatever you wish, but to see it as real and not a trick, you must first believe in your heart that you are worthy. Forgiveness is a neverending process for us humans and yet a multifaceted jewel. Never stop practicing it and when good things come into your world, know it is because you too are forgivable and worthy.

Namaste ❤

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Card Reading for October 8, 2019

Card reading for 10/8/19. The Universe has a not-so-funny way of teaching us who we are and what we are made of by handing us Tower card moment after Tower card moment. If one is perceptive, then eventually one will begin catching the hints and see that we are not the things we identify ourselves to be. We are spirit which is infinite. The more we label ourselves and identify our BEing with our physical reality, as in 'I am this' or 'I am that,' trust me, the Universe will dissolve these labels time and again. Who are you, really? If you've never pondered this, maybe it is time. But...this reading today tells me you have and you are learning. When we are on a spiritual path, we can begin to identify with concepts such as poverty and/or sacrifice because so much that comforts us gets stripped away. This must be the Universe's plan, right? Um kinda, but it goes deeper. I think if we keep going and keep questioning, we'll discover the Universe is really just trying to help us establish our substance, our value. What are you worth? Because according to the Universe, you are worth what you are accepting...which then becomes your belief, which then continues to be reflected back in your reality. As a single mom trying to run a creative business, I have certainly been on my own little journey of exploring my worth. I've had enough successes to tell me, I'm onto something, but in truth, I have struggled much just to pay my bills and stay motivated. I've told myself, 'well, I know I'm doing good work so this must be the Universe's plan.' Recently it occurred to me to ask the Universe for an intentional Tower moment, to collapse beneath me any unhealthy beliefs built on falsehoods that I've adopted along my spiritual journey, including that I must sacrifice or martyr myself and my material needs in order to do good work in the world. I have to say, it's working. Because that's a crap belief. What I see in the cards today is my gratitude for yet another shift in identification and the infinite opportunities for abundance opening up to me now by making that shift. I invited that in and you can too. You still have to create solid work, but you can live well too.

Namaste 💚

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Card Reading for October 1, 2019

Card reading for 10/1/19. Do you believe if you ask for help that it will come? This message has come through strong for me in meditation the last few days, that I need to make it a point to remind people to ask for divine assistance. The Universe wants you to fulfill your dreams and purpose, and to be successful by your definition of successful. If you are unsure what your dreams and passions may be, look back to a happy memory in your life, of a time when you felt free and alive and time slipped away. Look to a time you felt you did something good for you and someone else felt good because of it and how fulfilling it felt to start this chain of good feelings.This memory is a place to start. We all have natural talents and why do you think that is? Maybe you are good at talking and connecting or making others feel welcome and safe. Maybe you are a good cook or writer or you are super funny like me (i joke.) Maybe you are behind the scenes tinkering with all the parts so things run smoothly. These are starting points. You have something and the world needs it.The World is changing for the better and the Universe wants you to know there is a place in this world for your unique gifts. It may not feel like it right now, but it is. Unfortunately, we as humans don't initiate changes unless we are made uncomfortable. This is what is happening on a worldwide scale at this time. We are being made reeeeally uncomfortable because it's time. We have to go through this weird bullshit so we can wake up and realize 'oh hey this is bullshit' and 'there must be more to my life.' Many people on earth badly desire change at this time, but don't know how to begin or what to do next. The cards would like to remind you today to simply ask for assistance. Just come out and say it "Universe, will you please help me?" Tell the Universe your intention, whatever it may be, and ask for guidance, clarity, strength, etc., whatever you need, and then look to the signs you receive. Accept them. Trust them. The Universe always comes through because we are all connected here and therefore what fulfills you, fulfills someone else and so on, fulfilling the whole Universe.

Namaste 💚

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Card Reading for September 24, 2019

Card reading for 9/24/19. When people, and all the world seem lost or unfair, insensitive, cruel, or focused solely on their own material gains, it is tempting and oh so easy to lower yourself and your integrity in order to match up in what can feel like a battle of good versus evil. The Devil card today represents this feeling, the feeling of being trapped, enslaved, or powerless to someone or something outside of you. When we feel this way, suppressed or backed in a corner, we can instinctively lash out in cruelty at others in order to try and free ourselves. What I will remind you today is that when we do this, when we are cruel to another, even if we feel we are defending something good or pure, the truth is our own cruelty only further enslaves us by creating a new karmic debt. Being cruel and insensitive serves no higher purpose in human life ever. I feel at this time on Earth we are being triggered, collectively and individually, and it is more imperative than ever that we reach higher and into our hearts to find empathy. We must continue to heal our wounds and we must continue to practice discipline over our lower human urges. As tough as it is, we must find empathy for those acting cruelly and remember that in fact they are the ones enslaved. Empathy is how we grow and rise higher. Love is the way to freedom and true peace in our hearts. Venus in Libra squares Saturn in Capricorn this week. These are the values at our core being suppressed and strangled by Saturn. Our freedom with our own money is being suppressed. Our love life is being suppressed. The way we choose to live is being suppressed. My advice today is do not give in to the lower self. The Sun is in Libra right now backing up Venus very soon. Libra is Justice and justice will be made in cosmic time, but we, my friends, do not control that. The Wheel of Fortune here represents the karmic turn in front of you. Which direction will it spin? That is in our hands this time, my friends. Today we must remember that just because the world is cruel doesn't mean we have to be. In fact, if we desire true change on this planet, it's the reason we must not be.

Namaste 💜

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Card Reading for September 17, 2019

Card reading for September 17, 2019. Perhaps it's time to review what we believe. Upon pulling this spread, I was first elated to see the 4 of Wands, a card of stability, celebration, and much deserved happiness, which btw, I am feeling today! Then out comes the 5 of Pentacles and my heart sinks, thinking 'oh man, I'm happy....there must be doom and gloom to come.' Then out pops the Queen of Cups pointing me back at these two cards for further observation. The Queen of Cups is our high and psychic self, the one who knows where our life goes before we do. She is asking me to look again and tell her what I see. What I see is that I struggle with happiness. In fact, it's absolutely terrifying to me because it has been my experience that it never lasts and when it ends, it usually ends painfully. So as I've developed, I've learned never to let myself get too comfortable in happiness. If I'm always slightly discontented, then maybe God wont take anything away. It's not a healthy belief, I know, but understand these things come from trauma and we don't always consciously understand how this came to be for us. The timing is awesome because I know I need to work on this belief, like, yesterday! Because literally, I am so freaking happy! The last 4 years since my divorce have been emotional, mental, and physical hell, due to the constant stress and worry about how am I going to keep up and making life work. I finally FINALLY feel like im getting to live and build a life again and so yes, it's bringing up some stuff for me. But what the Queen of Cups also represents is protection and what I've always known in my psychic eye is that I AM protected. These 4 years of worry about finances and my health, well, the truth is, things kept working out. I've had some scares, but I've also managed every single time, literally by the grace of God. Life is taking another turn towards happiness and I admit, I'm excited and terrified. But what I believe the Universe is trying to say in this reading today is maybe its time to drop the terrified, just be excited and see how that goes for me. Do you have any beliefs that are no longer serving you? Is it time for a review?

Namaste 🧡

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Card Reading for September 10, 2019

Card reading for 9/10/2019. Wow. Ok, so in shuffling the cards today I actually got the same 3 cards as last week, the Sun and the 9 and 10 of Pentacles. (Perhaps go back and read what I wrote then.) I asked for a second reading to help me clarify the message and then I got these three. It seems the Universe really wants to get the message through that good things are afoot. The reading is clear and simple this week: Things are changing, there is hope, and there will be success for your efforts. We are building to a full moon at the end of the week which is typically when life gets active. Watch and see how this week plays out, and if it is not obvious, my advice would be to at least try and find the positive in it. It's a Pisces moon and sometimes Pisces energy hides beneath the surface. It's gifts may surprise you.

Namaste 💜

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Card Reading for September 3, 2019

Card reading for 9/3/2019. In 2019 we are seeing some very rare astrological aspects. There is one MAJOR aspect slipping by behind the scenes, and yet playing out big time for all of us. Jupiter in its home sign of Sagittarius squaring Neptune in its home sign of Pisces. These two planets are symbolic of similar, but very distinguishable things: Jupiter, our beliefs systems, including religion, our wisdom, personal growth, expansion of our individual ‘world,' and our sense of optimism. Neptune, our connection to Divinity, our spirituality (please note, the cosmos distinguish religion from spirituality, perhaps we should too?) our ability to let go and trust in what our five senses cannot detect, and our ability to dissolve the ego in order to merge with a higher purpose. The Jupiter/Neptune square is basically making us suuuuper confused and question our entire sense of purpose in life. No big deal, right? If you are doubting lately, perhaps take comfort in knowing you are in cosmic alignment. In astrology, the farther out the planet, the more power it wields in aspects. Therefore, Neptune has strength here. But what does it mean? This is a test of faith and the only way to pass is to have faith. We are being urged to LET GO in 2019 more than ever before and these cards today would like to reiterate that. God loves you. If you are doing the work of your spirit, you are taken care of by God. I'd like to remind you at this time to look back at a time when you feared you could not do something. Looking back you can see that there has always been a way. Go forward knowing the same.

Now, a word of warning. This does not mean complacency! You must not rely on optimism alone to pay your bills. You must be proactive. A major step in manifestation is action. Your action is energy and this energy sends the message to the cosmos that you are serious about your intention. Keep going, keep working at it, I say. The Jupiter/Neptune square does separate in the coming weeks, never to be seen again in our lifetime. Saturn will also be going direct around the same time. Keep going. Have faith that you will see progress and you will have clarity very soon.

Namaste ❤

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Card Reading for August 27, 2019

Card reading for 8/27/19. Many things in this reading today. First, I want  to say to you, 'don't give up.' If you are reading this, it is a reminder that you are not here to be like everyone else. Your work, your passion, your talent and your light is different for a reason. You're not crazy, but the planet is in dark times. I think most of us with a beat in our hearts can see this plain as day anymore. Our planet needs lightworkers and She needs them to be fierce in the face of this uncertainty.  You KNOW right from wrong. You know what your purpose is and what it clearly is not. Stay focused. It can feel like an endless mountain to climb for those of us paving our own paths. At times, it can even feel like forces are pushing against you. If so, you must be proactive in guarding your energy. It is a lot for us to juggle because for the lightworkers, our life's work is also our way of life. It feels  like a lot of pressure. It can even feel like a duel life because actual 'life life' is happening too and we have to keep figuring out how to marry everything together. When I say 'life life,' I'm talking about bills and mortgages and groceries and I'm talking about parenting. Real tangible life responsibilities. There are those of us who feel equally called to assist the planet as we do to raise our children, and it can  cause uncertainty. But think of it this way, the planet is the home we leave behind for our children. Our legacy. You can't give up on that. This reading wants you to know that you CAN balance it all. It's tough work, but hey, you're a tough human. This reading is wanting you to know your prayers for assistance are heard, as well. You are not doing this alone, despite how it feels at times. You have a team in this world and they will make themselves known soon, if they have not already. Finally, the reading shows results for your work (yes I'm talking money,) will begin to show. It's Virgo season! And Virgo is the harvest. If you planted and nurtured it, it grew. Advice today is simple. Know who you are, trust your purpose, and don't give up on it.

Namaste ❤

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Card Reading for August 20, 2019

Card reading for 8/20/19. This is a wonderful reading today, speaking of your powers of manifestation and/or creative power. The Sun in the sky is just a few days away from Virgo, along with Venus, Mars (who is already there,) and Mercury wont be too far behind. With Uranus in Taurus and Saturn (going direct soon too!) and Pluto in Capricorn, this gives us 7, count them, SEVEN planets in Earth. Virgo, where our personal planets will be, is the sign of the harvest. What am I babbling on about, you ask? Put simply, life is about to look very tangibly different. That's right. This reading is verrrry cosmically aligned once again and we are coming to face the karmic result for whatever we have been working toward. Is it good? Is it bad? That's up to you. What you sow, so shall you reap. That is the law of the Universe. This reading shows new jobs, new love, marriage, children, healing, good health, and creative rewards. It is my sense that the topsy turvy frustration that comes with eclipse season has helped many people become laser focused on their true heart's desire. We figured out what we want (usually by discovering what we definitely DON'T want!) and we put our nose to the grind. The only thing that can come from that is tangibility. Results. The earth energy is about results. The good thing is that if you have been unfocused, the Earth energy is great for focus, especially Virgo, ruled by Mercury. So don't lose heart. Life runs in cycles and then cycles within cycles. There are always new starts and this reading speaks of fertile energy for you to begin. Finally, this reading ALSO speaks of your ability to RECEIVE the blessings for which you have asked and worked so hard. However, this final subject matter could also be a whole other post so I will pose one question before I go. Are you ready to receive?

Namaste ❤

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Card reading for August 13, 2019

Card reading for 8/13/19. Jupiter is now direct, Mercury is direct and back in Leo, the Sun, Venus and Mars are in Leo. Lots of forward moving fire, so what's the hold up? Where's my progress, Universe? I wants it! And I wants it now. For weeks, it's been like we are teenagers who have been asking for a new phone. This is the moment where we get the new phone, but first Mom sits us down for a nice lonnnnng lecture about how to care for the new phone. Perhaps she's reminding us of the last time we had a phone and we cracked the screen or lost it. Meanwhile, the shiny new device sits right there next to her and we're struggling to hear her words because what we really want is to snatch that phone up right now so we can start snapping selfies and bragging about it on Instagram. My advice? Listen to the lecture! This reading speaks of several things. Firstly, it speaks very much about feelings of disappointment and frustration that we cannot just have our way immediately. In addition, this reading is reminding you that divine timing is very much out of your hands. Yes, you can manifest whatever you desire, but you can only do so with the ebbs and flows of Cosmic Time and Order. Lastly, this reading reminds you to keep your integrity in check. You may be feeling very frustrated and antsy, tempted to act in haste to get that shiny new phone from your mom. I urge you to let go to divine time as best you can so that you don't make choices you'll later regret. Your desires are manifesting, my friends, please have faith in that. Just like your mom wants to give you the new phone, the Universe wants to give you your hearts desire, but it must do its due diligence and check your ability to handle the responsibility of it. Pass her test. Be patient, I say. Trust that it is coming and let it go. Hasty actions now will only lead to your disappointment.

Namaste ❤

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Card Reading for August 6, 2019

Card reading for 8/6/19. Anytime I am feeling even the slightest bit of doubt when it comes to my path, I pull the 7 of Pentacles. What I know about the 7 of Pentacles, however, is that this card aligns with the planet Saturn and is therefore, a test. The 7 of Pentacles represents a feeling of plateau. Yes, you have achieved a certain level of measurable success, but this is by no means where you wish to remain. You know the mountain goes higher than this. It was not so long ago you saw the top so clearly, but it seems there is a fog moving in. Where you are going is unclear now. How can this be? While yes, you may feel weighted when you pull the 7 of Pentacles, it is actually a positive card. Ambiguous in appearance, but it tells me this fog does lift! The two remaining cards are very significant in this reading, and as you can see, they are major arcana cards, and they are our guides through the fog. The Emperor urges us to plow through it. Stay focused, onward and upward. He is a fire card and fire is our light in the dark, or in this case, our light in the fog. The High Priestess represents unseen forces. She is ahead of us already, higher up the mountain, knowing what is to come, whispering in our ears, "follow the sound of my voice." Saturn is always present when we are presented with our greatest lessons. For you, it is time you learn to trust the Universe working behind the scenes for you. It is time to lose the self-doubt and feeling as though you are doing it all alone. You are not. You KNOW where you are going, no matter what strange tests are placed before you. Trust the Universe to be whispering the way in your ears, guiding you subtly in every moment. Be the Emperor and just keep moving in confidence, one foot in front of the next. Your path will be seen with your outer eyes again soon enough. In the meantime, use your inner one.

Namaste 💜

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Card reading for July 30, 2019

Card reading for 7/30/2019. Feeling blocked much? Ugh, I hear that. So many ideas. So much coming through, I can barely make note. This summer has been beautiful in so many ways, but very difficult for me with regard to balancing my work and home and spiritual life. See that Mother of Pentacles down there, she is the ultimate mom and when I see her in a reading, I like to think that she's me. Everything I ever aim for in this life, no matter how 'out there,' is with my kids in mind. I like to think the Universe sees me trying over here. Ironically, the work I do is of a creative/spiritual nature, I work from home and to be focused and any good, in order to produce, I require much solitude. Just facts. So when my kids (or anyone, for that matter,) are here, needless to say I don't get much accomplished. And that's frustrating. And some days I feel blocked from every possible angle. Upon pulling these cards I asked for a reading regarding the Leo New Moon energy in and what I believe the Universe is saying is to hang in there. Always focus on the lightwork and hello? Remember that my kids are my ultimate light work. The Universe reminds me over and over again to relax and to simply be 'Mom.' It's hard when I need to pay bills, but if I study my history, I find that when my focus is on my children, my main #1 priorities, the Universe always provides. The message in this reading is to take a look at your priorities, your ultimate light work. What (or who) is it? Focus on that for now and the Universe will always come through for you. Btw, I do see breakthroughs coming soon. This Leo moon is square to Uranus in Taurus at the moment and when that happens, we get  suprising shake ups that sometimes set us on whole new trajectories. The thing about Uranus though, it's aspects are to further your awakening. So plant your new moon seeds, friends, hang tight out there, and hang on!

Namaste 🧡

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Card Reading for July 23, 2019

Card reading for July 23, 2019. Well, happy Sun in Leo! First of all, look at how happy the freakin Sun card is today! I just love it when the cards speak so literally. The Sun is at home in the sign of Leo and when we get the Sun in a reading, everything we do is illuminated positively and we are charged up by the energy the actual sun is sitting in. In the zodiac, Leo is your heart. Leo is children and childlike love, wonder, and abundance. Leo is leadership! This is excellent news as we start our reading with the World card, showing us new beginnings, success, and fulfillment in our endeavors. With the Empress front and center, this tells me seeds are being planted and you are being guided by your heart. Absolutely follow this guidance, my friends! The Sun and World shining on the Empress also tell me special energy is being sent to mothers right now, from the Divine Mother in the form of beauty. Whatever the divine Mother is whispering in your ear, heed it and you will be watched over. Are you feeling guided to assist children or mothers? Are you feeling guided towards a more creative path? Are you feeling guided to add more beauty? Do it. The answer is yes. Your work here is so needed. The power of beauty, art, and nurturing has too long been taken for granted. The Cosmos want to be set in balance and the Divine Mother's part in that balance is through softness and receptivity, through beauty, art, jewelry, flowers, music, food, healing. This work can be done by those of strong in feminine ways. By the way, there are many men with strong feminine energies that need to step forward and do this work now too. Those of us with gifts in these areas have at times in our lives been made to feel useless in a world that prizes masculinity. I believe this has lead to serious confusion of purpose by so many. Beauty and softness is necessary, my friends, or God would never have made it so. Why do you think we have the ability to admire it and be inspired? If you've asked a question today, or if any of this is relevant, this reading today points to a 'hell yes.' If you've simply stumbled upon this reading, the cosmos want you to know you are beautiful and necessary.

Namaste ❤

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Card Reading for July 16, 2019, Capricorn Full Moon/Lunar Eclipse

Card reading for Capricorn Full Moon/Lunar Eclipse. Wherever Capricorn sits in your chart is an area of life that the Universe wants you to get serious about this time around. With Saturn currently transiting its home sign alongside Pluto, that time is now. Have you been doing your work? Capricorn is about your legacy here on this planet. What is your legacy? Look to your MC and the 10th house in your chart. The answers may surprise you. Saturn and Pluto have been clearing karma in an area of your life so that you can build anew upon a strong foundation. I think for many of us, this has been quite exhausting, learning all the places in our lives that were built upon weak foundations. But...good news. We are coming to a new phase. The World together with the Wheel is speaking of NEW times. Better times, built upon the wisdom we have gained through this cycle. I feel like there has been some collective dread over this lunar eclipse...or maybe that's just me? Saturn/Pluto through Cap has been the hardest work of my life, but i know what it wants me to do. I know it's not fooling around, and so yeah, I think I have some healthy fear at this point. With the 9 of Wands, there may be one final test under this moon. But... it IS a test. Dont lose sight of your goals and progress, because you are so close to everything flipping up in your favor. Use the tools you have learned to stay calm and in a state of peace. Life will never stop testing, but you can be cognizant and continue to pass. I feel that in a few days, we will see whether we have passed this latest test. We will also see how very minor it is in the scheme of things. There is very benevolent energy to come later this week that my intuition tells me bears reward of some kind. So my advice is to hang in there through this moon, guys! Stay in the light and share it with others the best you can.

Namaste 💛

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Card reading for July 2019 Cancer New Moon/Total Solar Eclipse

Card reading for July 2019 Cancer New Moon/Total Solar Eclipse. I did a full spread here so I'm going to sum this up best I can with limited space. The base of this reading is love, and if you are reading this, Love is why have stumbled upon this reading. Love awaits you. If you have love, then love matures. We come into this reading with the Hermit crossed by the the Knight of Pentacles. You have new goals now, legit, grown up goals in relationships. It's ok if your vision for the future is not what it once was. The Universe blessed you with a taste of something special with the Empress in the immediate past. When she and the two of Cups talk, they tell me seeds are being planted for something amazing, especially if we look ahead to our outcome cards, the 10 of Cups and the Star. This is magical! But for life to improve, for relationships to grow, it takes money. This just is what it is here on Earth and it's time to buckle down. The Knight of Pentacles crossing you speaks of working hard and the Queen of Wands above you tells me you will find the energy and inspiration to do so. In our fear position, we have the Chariot aka the Cancer card. The eclipses will bring events to spark change in you. Trust it. It leads to deeper emotional satisfaction and security. Yes, you have this in you. The 8 of Cups speaks of LETTING GO. Let go of something that simply isn't working for you anymore. What is it? What does your intuition say? You already know, and it is not the easiest let go with this 8, but I urge you to accept it because what it leads to is greater than you can fathom right now. By the looks of this reading, you know what must be done. You know what magic awaits. You don't trust yourself to make it so. The Star in the final outcome tells me the Universe believes in you. The Universe has faith in your potential even when you don't. I suspect some interesting events will play out in the next couple of weeks that will shake up your priorities. My advice is to TRUST it for the better. Trust the Universe to unfold its magic in its strange and unusual ways. WORK HARD and accept your reward. You are loved more than you know and you deserve more than you can dream. So dream big.

Namaste 💜

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Card reading for July 2019 Cancer New Moon/Total Solar Eclipse

Card reading for July 2019 Cancer New Moon/Total Solar Eclipse. I did a full spread here so I'm going to sum this up best I can with limited space. The base of this reading is love, and if you are reading this, Love is why have stumbled upon this reading. Love awaits you. If you have love, then love matures. We come into this reading with the Hermit crossed by the the Knight of Pentacles. You have new goals now, legit, grown up goals in relationships. It's ok if your vision for the future is not what it once was. The Universe blessed you with a taste of something special with the Empress in the immediate past. When she and the two of Cups talk, they tell me seeds are being planted for something amazing, especially if we look ahead to our outcome cards, the 10 of Cups and the Star. This is magical! But for life to improve, for relationships to grow, it takes money. This just is what it is here on Earth and it's time to buckle down. The Knight of Pentacles crossing you speaks of working hard and the Queen of Wands above you tells me you will find the energy and inspiration to do so. In our fear position, we have the Chariot aka the Cancer card. The eclipses will bring events to spark change in you. Trust it. It leads to deeper emotional satisfaction and security. Yes, you have this in you. The 8 of Cups speaks of LETTING GO. Let go of something that simply isn't working for you anymore. What is it? What does your intuition say? You already know, and it is not the easiest let go with this 8, but I urge you to accept it because what it leads to is greater than you can fathom right now. By the looks of this reading, you know what must be done. You know what magic awaits. You don't trust yourself to make it so. The Star in the final outcome tells me the Universe believes in you. The Universe has faith in your potential even when you don't. I suspect some interesting events will play out in the next couple of weeks that will shake up your priorities. My advice is to TRUST it for the better. Trust the Universe to unfold its magic in its strange and unusual ways. WORK HARD and accept your reward. You are loved more than you know and you deserve more than you can dream. So dream big.

Namaste 💜

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I'll Be Back 💜

Friends! I'm taking a short hiatus from my weekly collective readings as I am super focused on a number of big projects throughout the summer! Believe it or not these readings take me about an hour to two hours each week as I go deep to tap into the collective energy, and right now, I simply don't have the time to spare this way. I will definitely be back with a reading closer to the eclipses (beginning at the start of July) and then return to my regular readings late July. To clarify, yes, you can still book a private reading with me. Just go to my website and book me or feel free to message me privately. Also, I WILL be doing readings at the @heartlandyogafest again this year so come see me! I am SO excited about what is coming up in my world and I look forward to sharing more as I can. In the meantime, I hope everyone is enjoying the start of this amazing summer!


Namaste 💜

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Card reading for May 28, 2019

Card reading for 5/28/19. Do you trust happiness? Does contentment (10 of Pentacles) scare you? I admit this is a deeply rooted issue within me, stemming from a childhood of constantly moving around. As soon as I started to feel happy and settled somewhere....Bam! It was time to move. This went on til my early 20s. No roots for me. No deep connections, though, I wanted them so badly. I felt lonely most of my life and craved connection and inner peace more than anything actually. It's grown into issues of worthiness and guilt, as though, maybe I just don't deserve to be happy in this life? I handle crisis like a champ, but give me happiness and peace and my insides start churning. 'How's this going to be taken from me?' I wonder. I buzz around like a bee preparing for (what feels like) inevitable disaster and loss. I've been feeling that churning in my stomach and the buzzing about in my mind a LOT lately. Why? Because for the first time in a very long time, I'M HAPPY. And..well, I'm terrified. I knew from very early on, the way I grew up was not right. And I've known for the last several years it is my karma to heal these negative patterns within myself and balance (Justice) out my skewed beliefs in this lifetime. Lately, I've been so happy, (it even feels weird to say!) and I am fighting serious guilt because of it. I find my inner critic speaking up, telling me I'm goofing off too much or indulging too much, that I am not worthy of this happiness without hustle or hard work or deprivation of some kind. But the thing is, I've DONE a lot of hustle and hard work and deprivation! Regardless of that, I deserve to be happy! I am worthy of happiness because I AM. And I'm finding myself saying these words each day. And with each day comes a little more trust in it. With more trust, my spirit opens to new and infinite possibilities for my life (3 of Wands.) I share my personal read on these cards because I know many can relate when it comes to feelings of worthiness. YOU are WORTHY of a good and happy life. Your real work in this life is to break the negative patterns and beliefs that keep you from it. And you must do it every day. Like an exercise. The same way you learned it, you must unlearn it. And then do this til you start believing it. Then do it every day for the rest of your life. I am worthy of happiness. YOU are worthy of happiness. Say it with me.


Namaste 💜🙏💜

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Card reading for May 21, 2019

Card reading for 5/21/19. This has been a hell of a week, one that has me contemplating the idea of balance and fairness (Justice.) I've actually had one of the best weeks of my life, while others in my world have suffered the absolute worst possible. I have kept to myself (Hermit,) quietly feeling both extreme gratitude for my circumstances and simultaneously feeling guilt and pain for the circumstances of my loved ones. Why is it like this? Why the roller coaster? Why can't we just have happiness and peace while in this human existence? A naive idea to ponder maybe, but at 41 years old, rather than toughen up to life, it seems my empathic nature and sensitivity is only being heightened. Sure, I get the esoteric concept of 'no light without dark' blah blah... but is this just the bullshit we have to say to endure this life? Because frankly, I have had it with suffering. I am sick of unfairness. I'm really struggling with it this week and I admit, my faith is shaken once more. I don't know how to feel at peace right now with the good things that are happening for me knowing that my friends suffer, knowing that everything can be stripped away from me in an instant too. I can't do everything perfect or right, no one can, and so what? We pay the price with loss and suffering? (5 of Cups) It's interesting to me because as this strange mix of circumstances and feelings are swirling around me this week, I'm studying a new technique in my astrology course that has me wondering about concepts like fate and luck. Do some just luck out? I don't know, but it sure seems that way. I'd like to think we play a role in how our reality looks, but when tragedy strikes or when circumstances just keep piling up against our efforts, I can't help but think there is more to it. I don't normally pull a 4th card but for my own sake I needed to end this on a positive note, because well, that's me. The World. How ironic. The World is the ultimate.... the ending and the beginning. The World card today is a portal into a new World; Heaven perhaps for some, for others the inner eye opening to another facet of the reality of life. What's obvious to me now is that the new reality is not what we thought it would be,  it never really is, and it's our work now to make peace with it. Again.


Namaste 💜

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Card reading for May 14, 2019

Card reading for May 14, 2019. Self-destruction. Be mindful of what are you thinking about today and more importantly, what you are saying to yourself and others around you. We are now under the influence of a Scorpio full moon and full Scorpio moons are not known for modesty or holding back. The thing about Scorpio energy is that it is representating the realm of our deepest, darkest, and most intense emotions and fears. Scorpio moon energy comes around to illuminate our darkness and shine light on the stuff we fear within ourselves. What is that for you and how has it manifested in the past? The 5 of Swords comes out first today essentially warning you against yourself. What are your self destructive patterns? Do you feel them brewing under the surface? Scorpio is a deeply powerful energy, the kind of power that can transform us to higher states. In its darkest form, however, it is energy that can cut like a knife and destroy. Scorpio CAN completely ruin things if we allow it. But...this moon is an opportunity for  you to grow. It's an opportunity to be aware of your triggers and handle things differently. What I want you to see is that we are creating under the Empress here, as well. The Empress is Taurus season, Venus-ruled, and fertile ground for whatever seeds we plant. The cards show us the potential to grow beautiful things right now, as our reading wraps up with the lovely 10 of Cups. The 10 of Cups representing love, happiness, and emotional fulfillment. What does the 10 of Cups mean to you? And isn't worth being mindful of as we pass through the intensity of a Scorpio moon? Because the thing about the 5 of Swords, is that the little worm sliced in half on this card, in the end, if you use the Scorpio energy for harm, that worm is you. Everyone we hurt just walks away. But you on the other hand, are left to wiggle on in pieces. Don't do that to yourself. For now, just breathe and allow the buildup of energy to pass. Which it will. The Full moon on Saturday actually has lots of wonderful and emotionally rewarding energy with it. If you can make through this weird stuff, I suspect you'll be feeling pretty good (10 of Cups) come the actual moon.

Namaste 💜

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